The bitter sweet of life

Have you ever imagine finding out a dreaded truth? A reality that you have been trying to avoid and a fact you have been trying to brush off your mind.

In the most unnatural way I have experienced bits and bits of truth slowly unfold. My speculation became a reality. It broke my heart, mind, body and soul. It was a total disaster that caused my sanity to suspend in the air and saw nothing but black. And this happened maybe a month ago.

Now, I am in a terrible crossroad with no idea which way to go. I am totally lost in the oblivion of life. I feel alive but dead inside. NOW, I PERSONALLY FELT THAT THE TRUTH REALLY HURTS AND NOT HURTS BUT KILLS.